Love

Photograph -fresh and perky by Rushay

Occasionally, at night just before going to sleep I can start churning and thinking about really sad things. I do not know why this happens but its a really bad habit! Walking through every room in my Grandmother's house (she died recently) is a classic. Its almost like I am testing myself for how I react to pulling out the old memories; just checking on how grief has evolved? Or how I would manage if something really bad happened in the future. Thats a fun one (!).

Needless to say it can be difficult to sleep so I ask my husband for a 'nice image' because he's THE best at that. So he winges a bit because you know he is half asleep and then goes quiet..... but about a minute later in the dark he says, totally dead-pan voice, the most perfect thing- a mental picture with no possible negative associations.

"Three baby birds in a nest".
"G's paper streamers".
"Warm sun on grass".

I just love it x! because it always a new one and you know its actually quite hard to NOT choose something like 'ocean' which can, if you are melancholy and prone to it, turn dark. For example 'ocean'- ok mental picture...... lovely blue water.....horizon......far.....deep.......whats under the surface?...a shark! friggen jaws munching and crunching..scenes from drowning in that movie The Piano and then its all down hill.

So anyway I thought I'd share my cheesy haiku moment with you.

PS there is a most beautiful blog full of relaxed sunshiney images here x